school

hust when i though there's nothing interesting to blog,
i just realised an important issue
schooling
i'm having stpm in less than a month from today
and since i have to start revising all the 5 subjects i'm taking
most people in my position would want to cut school and stay at home and study instead
they treat school as a waste of time
lots of clhs people are doing that
but although waking up late and sleep as much as i like is very temptating,
i still opt to go to school
there's like only a month left for me to spend with a bunch of crazy people
and i know after i graduate, there'll be no such chance for me to fool around everyday
yes, many people view going to school and do what i did in school as a waste of time
but ireally cherish every bit of it
seriously there wont be another chance for me to joke around, calling people names and doing nothing but chatting
plus having conversations which is pointless
as much as i love to grow up
i hope i can stay in where i am now
it's fun
having nothing to worry about except stpm
:P
maybe you'll say i still go to school coz i'm more efficient in doing my revision,
but then again,
if i were you, i'll still go to school
there's noway those people who are in my group in class will hang out together after we graduate
even if there's an outing,
there must be a few who cant make it
and for that,
i'm thankful that a lot showed up for the birthday
maybe others are able to do it( to meet up outside the school)
but to this group i'm in now,
i think it's hell a lot of work to get all of them out
even for a short lunch
what more a reunion?
i dont blame them,
people have different priorities and in my case,
it's having fun, chilling with friends.
or does that shows that i'm still not that mature?
hoping to spend time with my friends??
mien said something the other day and i think it's very apt
朋友不会陪你一生的
loosely translated:- friends cant be there for you for the rest of your life
that makes me sad
as cruel as it may sound
that's the ultimate truth
or should i say
there's no one in this whole world who will accompany you to the very end
not your parents, your siblings, your friends, your partners
so that's the cold hard fact i have to learn to accept:(
very saddening
makes me think i dont really want to grow up that much after all
or is it because i'm getting more mature??=P
and is it true that we have to go through this life alone?
people come and leave in your life whether youlike it or not
and so, what's the point of getting closer to people then?
if it's destined that you'll be bidding goodbye to each other sooner or later??
ha
am hestitating to post this up
hope not many will see this*pray pray*
coz i think this is like a part of me that i would like to keep to myself
but yet, i still like to share it with some friends
maybe 18 is a big year afterall:)
big decisions waiting to be made
but for now,
i will have to study instead of dwelling on stuff like that
but then again, life's short and every seconf( or milisec) is precious and shouldnt be waste on small matters like studying for an exam:)
i cant share my thoughts with you verbally
but i hope by these simple words i am able to convey what i think to you
after all, you're only here for such a short while
and so many friends to entertain at that time
plus there's no one i think more suitable for me to share this with
plus i dont really think i'll say such things to you in person le
so the 怪癖 part shall be postponed can?
coz really think i am normal la..:)
yes, i am referring to you.
the person who left for us just a few months before spm
leaving us to struggle with the witch( shes not tha bad now)
=p
i think you'll get what i mean, at least 70%
or else, then you're not that chinese anymore
coz if you still read chinese books, then you should le
i'll remember the school with an unfair system of grading it's students and yet are filled with soo many great teachers plus where i grew up and the school that made me who i am today.
plus the breeding site for a bunch of silly girls all born in the year 1986