Karma?

The consequences that I have to face for slacking off for the past 4 years in med school.

And to get away with supervisors and doctors who were not strict.

And perhaps I played too hard during holidays?

The past 3 weeks had been long and exhausting.

I need a good Japanese meal, shopping spree, karaoke session, movies and to be able to watch Germany vs England match!!

I can't do any of those because

1) I don't have enough time

2) I need sleep more than watching World Cup

3) I don't have enough time.

Whoever said surgery is a free and easy posting made a lousy joke.

Still, learnt a lot this few weeks. Or I think I am compensating what I didn't learn in year 3.

In the last 5 days

I have learnt more than what I did in my 8 weeks of surgical posting in 3rd year. Seriously.. I tried to cramp as much as I can in my air filled cerebrum so that I form sufficient synapses to deal with the coming 6 weeks. However, there's only so much I can absorb. 5 seminars/lectures a day, each lasting at least 2 hours is mentally taxing. I welcome the input though and am thankful for the efforts my course mates had put into their presentations. I can see the tremendous change that 4 years of medical school had done to some of us =D

I am trying to be more hardworking this year. Looking back, I am not just good at procrastination, but also killing time with nonsensical stuff. Or it's just because I had been such a lazy bum.

And then I suddenly thought about Nian Ning..We hadn't been close then, it was years after Talents Camp, where laughter were endless and we were so carefree. I remembered her enthusiasm and her drive for medicine. The incident had shook me so hard that I had made a promise to myself then, to strive harder with whatever I chose to do with my life.