lalalalalaaaaaa

i'm back home again
after 2 weeks!!
^-^
so so happy!!
i didnt plan to come back until the very last minute
and therefore
i was so excited that i cant sleep on the day before!!
and on friday morning
i was WIDE AWAKE for the 3 hours of lectures!!!!!!!
( i always feel sleepy or listen to music in lectures)
haha

i'm settling down now
but i still want to come home as often as i can
i'm joining a lot of activities to keep myself busy
and also causing me dont have time to sit down and study
medical students
are really studious
most of them are
and ppl are like competing their progress with others
and it's only the 2nd week!!!
sigh
i think i'm going to do badly
but i dont care
i just want to pass and have fun!!
our cu-curriculum is a new one
and it's an integrated system which means
more fun and less lectures
but also = tougher
since we are expected to FIND our own study material
plus studying on our own
really no more spoon feeding
the thing is
our library was BURNT DOWN
yes..
meaning
we have very few books for reference
and plus
there's no free internmet access there
= we cannot look for info online
unless we PAY
0_0
what kind of uni is that??
but overally
it's ok la
coz everyone is going through the same thing
there's 241 of us 11 of them are repeating first year
that means
i MIGHT repeat if i dont study hard enough
no mood to study after 7 months of break

anyways
went shopping just now
bought two pairs of shoes
one for basketball and the other running
bought a pair of sandals yesterday from vincci
ya it is weird
i study at kl and i come back to penang to SHOP
there's so many things i want to say
but dont know where to start
but the guys there are O_O
the girls are ok
but the guys....

and when i see the matrics ppl
i feel more mature though we are of the same age
guess that's the side effect of being stuck with the 1986 ppl
just so u all can imagine the workload i'm facing
i have to complete a lab report everyweek
and also
what i HAVE to study in a week here= what i studied for 3 months in form 6
with more info
yes
it's THAT stressful
and while other students have 2 months of hols
we have less than a month of freetime
sigh
but i hope it's all going to worth it seeing the patients getting well

my dream???
graduate in 5 years' time
and still be able to stay SANE.

to my lovely wife:)

the tall pretty slim smart
wei yean left for spore last sunday night
leaving the short handsome fat EQUALLY smart me behind in malaysia:(
sobsobsob...
and i wasnt there to send her off :(
and i didnt even take the initiative to call her:(
and luckily she called:)
knew her since form 1 and we were in the same class up till form6
a long long time
but we didnt grow close until form4
she's been a great friend and i think will always be one:)
always taking care of those around her
and maybe that explains why she's very popular with guys and girls too:)
what i want to say here is
dont pressure urself too much
if trying to please everyone makes u feel stress
dont do it
u have us always beside u
so sorry i didnt call u up
but life at uni is definitely not a easy one
i shall walk through it
it's been great to have u beside me in high school
and i shall miss all the great times we had together
but all of us have to move on
i'm sure u have notrouble dealing with a new environment
thanks for all the things u 've done for me
and sorry if i have done anything wrong
i hope u're having a great time there!!
see u when u're back!
MUAH!!!!

i like this picture best
though i dont look nice in it:)
cheers~~

why am i here?

coz i want to help those in need
and i'm interested in people
so no matter how big the sacrifices are going to be
i'll have to bear with it
it's never easy to make decision


but now
i cant even help my own friend who is in trouble!
maybe i'm not really good at comforting ppl
i never went through it so i dont know how it feels like
but i can feel ur pain.
i hope time will heal u
as it did to others
that's the only good thing
moving on or holding on
it's all up to you
but we are here tby your side
inside ur heart
when u are feeling down and depressed
call MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CALL US!






blogging from ukm cyber cafe
and i need to pay 1.5 per hr

life here is tiring and boring
i know i'm complaining non stop
and i'm a big whiner plus bugger
but it's really tough living away from home
used to yearn to go out when i was in form 5
now i wish there's a ipta in penang that offers medic
feel so relaxed back home
and all the travelling are worth it
when i reached home
reminds me micheal buble's HOME:(

might go back again this weekend
O_o
dont give me that look
i still have a hard time adaptinfg myself here
and trying to find a new niche is never easy
fitting in and looking for new friends
are just parts of it


it's 11
and i have to go to bed by 12
if not
i 'll feel sleepy in lecture
and kena marah by lecturers

4 weeks ago
i slept at 4 am everyday
and only i can marah ppl
i can sleep anytime i want
my mom did my laundry
and i dont have to PAY for drinking water


funny isnt it?

letting go

is never easy
and will never be
moving on is hard
and will always be
i guess
it's part and parcel of growing up
and no matter how reluctant and how bad u want time to stay still
u still have to move on eventually
some are prepared and can accept it
for others
they are not willing to accept the responsibility when they need to
and i'm the latter
but now i think
i will have to
no matter what
such is life:(


there's one cyber cafe in my hostel
that opens daily
from 8 PM till 12 AM
all my free time at kl now are devoted to doing my own laundry
and now
i know how hard and scary it is
to wash clothes
and i'm super lucky to have my mom to do it for me for the past 18 years

reached home 4 am yesterday
and leaving at 1 pm later
so that's a good bye to all of u:P

...

i dont know where to start
so many things happened for the last 2 weeks
and many of them arent good
guess this is life
full of challenges
and unpredictable
to all my friends
if u are reading this
let's all stay strong and better days are awaiting us
dont ever give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!